I made a new account on a whim just now..i dont like my user name on here sooo i made an ew account!


addd meeeee!! =]

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Well it seems I might be having more time to draw...

Got some nice news on tuesday at work..
I got pulled away by my store manager and got cornered in his little office by two fat ladies from our union..and they handed me this paper that basically says im getting laid off...I have an option of trying to get transferred to one other store..but honestly i don't want to.

I'm really really sad about it all..Dominick's was like my second home..ive been with them for almost 2 years and it was my first job..paul,melissa,laura, and tom were like my lil pharmacy family and im gunna miss them so much.


At the moment I'm just really stressed over that and school. I don't know if I wanna transfer to a different dominicks...or go try and find somewhere else to work..with jobs being so hard to come by im just really scared and don't know what to do.

spring break started offically for me at 9 when i got out of my chem class...but i have a bunch of english assignments to do and study for a HUGE 5 chapter chemistry exam thats going to be taken in two parts. I'm dropping my geometry class because i cant keep up with all my classes..geometry takes up all my time trying to get all these assignments done and i don't even learn anything..never taking an online math class again.


so im hoping after dealing with my lil job crisis and getting rid of a class i won't be so stressed and could finally clear my head and sit down and draw..it used to be therapy for me..i need to get into that habit again..all this stress is driving me crazy.


Hopefully I'll be uploading something soon *crosses fingers* =\

I haven't updated this thing in forever...I'd like to try and get in the habit of drawing again..since my boyfriend's mom just bought me this thing of 100 gel pens..i had a fun time color sorting them the other night because I'm weird like that.

But we shall see how this drawing thing works out...between my 2 math classes, chemistry and then my english class starts monday..then working on my only off days between school ugh.

Updates about me:

Well..I haven't wrote a REAL journal entry in forever..
I was all angsty back in the day because my mom and dad were going through a divorce and it was real awkward at my house..my best friend got real sick and almost died a couple times...ugh..that was so horrible.=[ plus i was going through my own problems on top of that...


Now...divorce is over I'm living with my mom and rarely talk to my dad..my best friend is doing well and now I'm just trying to live..I'm working at Dominicks as a Pharmacy technician and going to school to be a pharmacist...which most people can't believe I'm doing..yeah me neither...lets see if I can make it..

This may I might be going to my first anime convention!! I've been wanting to go to one since i was little and was just getting into anime! I'm pretty excited I really hope we go...I gotta think of a costume..Ill probably be the only one dressing up but I really dont care..I either wanna be Seras Victoria from Hellsing or maybe someone from Organization 13..whatever I can buy off ebay...since i suck at sewing..if I can somehow make this into a regular thing (which would be aweeeesome) I'd have to start to learn how to sew myself..hmm..I'm also tempted to buy a keyblade off ebay for like 400 bucks..cause i want one..=[
Then in August me and the boy might go to Blizzcon before fall semester starts..which I'll dress up at blood elf since i have my ears! :3

So instead of sitting down to get some of my online math class homework done I'm writing this journal and trying to plan out some drawings...It feels good to be thinking like my old self again.

is there anyone here
that would like to
confess their
sins with me tonite?

well tell me ...

everything ...

tell me your most
secret fantasy ...
tell me ... your most
perfect blasphemy ...

tell me ...

tell me why the soul must rot
tell me ...
why you lack a single,
original fucking thought??

tell.
me.

tell me all those things
your god forgot ...


... through these jungles of fire
& past these mountains of pure power ...

this world ...

this world is a fucking holocaust,
& it's
eating me